The past two weeks I’ve been seeing a nutritionist.
My name is Lynda and I’m a food addict. 😀
But seriously, I am in the category of “obese” according to my BMI. This is not a good thing.
I weigh 69 lbs MORE than I did when I GAVE BIRTH to my last child.
I’m ashamed of myself…how did I let this happen?
So, a few weeks ago, I decided to do something proactive about my health and my weight problem. I made an appointment with a registered dietician (my insurance pays for 6 visits per year). I want to be sucessful at this, but I have to admit, I’m more than a little scared. I have a bad case of FOF (Fear of Failure).
But more than this fear of failure is a fear of staying obese or becoming more obese. I know there are terrible health risks associated with being fat. I already feel awful, both physically and emotionally. And, I hate having to shop in the “fat” stores, even though some of the clothes are kind of cute! I know this has to be a lifestyle change, not just a diet.
I’m also scared because I have a past history of bulimia and I just don’t want to go there again. Yeah, I lost a lot of weight, but I’m here to tell you that I was FAR from healthy. That was a really dark time in my life. I don’t even feel like the same person, but I know that I could fall into that abyss again if I’m not careful and if I don’t have a plan. It’s really no different from alcoholism in that respect.
So, I’m off on a journey to improve my health, both physically and mentally. I need to get motivated. I need to JUST DO IT! If you are a praying person, please pray for me. I’m sure going to need it!