Yeah, I might have cancer…I probably do have cancer according to my pathology report. And yeah, I am going to have surgery to remove my thyroid in a few weeks.
But those aren’t the main reasons for my fears.
I keep reading about the period of time after surgery…when I’m going to be hypo thyroid…and it’s not pretty. In fact it’s a real downer. I can take the pain of surgery. I have a pretty high tolerance for pain, though I’m not really looking forward to that.
I’ve realized that I’m used to being strong and capable, and from what I read that might very well not be the case for a good long while after my surgery. It can sometimes take YEARS to figure out the right dosages of thyroid hormone replacement medication! And, during the time that you and the doctor are figuring out the right doses, you are probably going to feel really rotten. Or so I hear.
I’m glad I have places I can go to understand what is going to happen to me. It really does help to be able to educate myself on what is going to happen so I can prepare myself for the inevitable, at least mentally.
I joined a Yahoo Group on Thyroid Cancer and they have this posted in one of their files:
As I sat reading through the list I had tears streaming down my face. Is this what it is going to be like? Really? (sigh) And can I, or will I really ask for help? That is so hard for me to do. I’m a caregiver type of person, and not so good at accepting help. It’s not that I’m not grateful when people offer to help me, I truly am grateful! It’s just that I feel so darned guilty about it. I should be doing these things for myself…and now I find out that I might not be able to even drive myself around…and maybe not even work! Maybe it’s all exaggerated and it won’t really be this bad? I hope.
If anyone is interested in reading more from ThyCa they can go to their website.
The Yahoo Group is here:
There is a mother lode of information at both places. My advice is to take it in small doses. It can really be overwhelming if you try to absorb it all in a couple of sittings. Especially if you or someone you love is facing this monster.
I keep hearing, “If you’ve got to have cancer, this is the kind to have.” And I keep thinking, “But I don’t want to have cancer at all.”
I didn’t get to choose that one, did I? That card just wasn’t in my deck.